being alone has its advantages, but then there are times like the past month or so where, frankly, it sucks ass. watching my friends with their significant others or soon-to-be ones, makes me wanna go cry. im to the point where i would date almost anyone hahaha. i dont know. its kind of like, i feel like something is wrong with me because no one seems to have any sort of interest in me, except like, the creepers. i mean, i want to wait on God to send me the right one, but its soooo hard. *sigh* lately, there have been alot of times when i just wanna be like, screw it, i will take anyone!! hahaha. but in the end, i dont. so here i am, still alone. its seems like i will be forever....help me Jesus, i dont know how much longer i can handle this.
whats ironic is that i give the best relationship advice. for instance, i am in the process of helping two of my really good friends with their guy issues. one of them takes my advice and her relationship is going great while the one who ignored me is now in a relationship with a guy who has openly admitted that he does not have any romantic feelings for her, but he is willing to force himself to "try" because he knows how much she likes him. seriously?? thats about the dumbest thing i have ever heard of. but does she listen to me, of course not. so a correction to my earlier statement. i would NEVER date someone who had to FORCE himself to like me. thats pathetic. just thought id get that out there, since she obviously doesnt listen to me when i tell her that. sheesh.
even after all of that venting, here i still sit, alone.
after everything i have been through, would be relationships that feel through because the guy is a douche, break ups, and attracting only 23 year olds, i feel like i am ready. but i guess that is up to God alone. and so here i am, full circle, still waiting. anytime now would be lovely lol. my best friend and i joke around all the time singing the song where its like, "im all alone, theres no one here beside me, my troubles are all gone, theres no one left to ride me, but you gotta have friends." shrek is so profound sometimes. haha
anywho, i would thoroughly enjoy meeting the one i am supposed to be with forever. that would be awesome....
